Along Longitudinal Lines

In 2000, one year after I arrived in Israel, the Second Intifada erupted. For the next five years, young men and women outfitted in explosive vests stepped into downtown intersections, crowded markets, and public buses, and detonated themselves, killing anyone who happened to be standing nearby. In September 2003, one Hamas suicide bomber carried out his mission at a café around the corner from our apartment. Our building shook. Our ears rang. We comforted three bloody tourists before the ambulances arrived. After their release from the hospital, they carried their trauma back home with them to Australia.

Yehuda Amichai Credit: Layle Silbert

At the time, I was a newcomer to the work of Israeli poet Yehuda Amichai, whose poem, קטר הפצצה - Koter HaPitzatza - The Diameter of the Bomb, spoke directly to me.

The Diameter of the Bomb 
Translated by Chana Bloch and Stephen Mitchell

The diameter of the bomb was thirty centimeters
and the diameter of its effective range about seven meters,
with four dead and eleven wounded.
And around these, in a larger circle
of pain and time, two hospitals are scattered
and one graveyard. But the young woman
who was buried in the city she came from,
at a distance of more than a hundred kilometers,
enlarges the circle considerably,
and the solitary man mourning her death
at the distant shores of a country far across the sea
includes the entire world in the circle.
And I won't even mention the howl of orphans
that reaches up to the throne of God and
beyond, making
a circle with no end and no God.

Ever since the Israel-Hamas War broke out, I have been reflecting on Amichai’s poem. In the early weeks, when the names of Hamas’ victims were released, the poem obviously came to mind. I did not know any of the dead, injured, or kidnapped, but I occupied Amichai’s “larger circle of pain and time.” Two of the murdered kibbutz members were nieces of a friend; one of the free spirits killed at the music festival was the grandson of another.

As our attention moved to the fighting in Gaza, Amichai’s poem again struck a chord. Each night, as I listened to the roar of planes overhead, I could all too easily imagine the ripple effects of their bombs. Tragically in Gaza, “hospitals are scattered.” Undoubtedly, a “howl of orphans” can be heard.

Now, six weeks into this war, a different dynamic has emerged. Pain no longer radiates toward us from distant events, but hits us directly, repeatedly, like the gusts of a local storm intensified by a prevailing wind. It bounds and rebounds across boundaries. It ricochets with pinpoint precision. The spatial quality of our lives has changed.

I’ve tried to capture it here, in a new version, a near inversion, of Amichai’s poem.

Along Longitudinal Lines
After Yehuda Amichai

After 1,200 people were murdered and 240 were kidnapped,
300,000 people rallied in support of the murderers and kidnappers
in a city more than 2,000 miles away. And though 
a counter-rally was staged not far from there, 
it drew half that number, and did little
to lessen our multiplied pain. 
Another counter-rally was held from a distance 
of some 6,000 miles. But by then,
a mother and father had traveled here from there 
to bury their soldier on Herzl’s hill, 
where the meridians of their grief and of ours 
converged on half the circle of the Earth.